Wow! It's been almost two years since I wrote in here. And it was a much-needed two year break. While I kept quietly writing my manuscripts... I needed a break from writing about my life. I think after losing my mom then my dad, and all that came with that, I needed to let my heart fully break in order to just grow it back new. It isn't fair to my family to have someone who was walking around with only parts of my heart. I was trying to glue little pieces back together and finding that every time one part felt fixed, another little piece broke off. I needed to really let myself grieve without sharing that part of my journey outside of myself. My heart will never be the same was it was before losing mom and dad, but it certainly isn't in the pieces that it was before. There is so much I'm grateful for in life - my beautiful family, my amazing friends, having a roof over our heads and a great education for my kids. But the hole left by my parents really made my heart hurt